The words hit me like daggers today laying, snuggling with my 4 year old son. The look of peace staring at me was eye opening. He knew I was happy, he wanted me to be happy. Was he on the fact that some days I'm anything but....you know Moms what I mean. Those days when the monotony and carpool catches up and there is nothing you want more then a big break.
Wait! Did he not see the smiles I had when he comforted the crying baby, or made his first soccer goals? When he spotted an american flag after school and rambled off 1-20 so perfect. Or when he always gives Jesus praise for making him super fast or funny, so so funny.
Is it the days I yell too much for picking on his sister. Or not hurrying up, just like his Mama who seems to rush through life. Or when he just won't fall asleep to take his naps anymore, I'm not ready for that darn it...remember I need the break.
It dawned on me today that life is passing by. That 4 year old on the couch, kinda loves me...idolizes me actually. That one day this is what he will remember. Not how many toys I purchased, or trips to the zoo. Not the play dates or trips to the pool. It is this, that smile on my face that will forever mark his heart. That will make him want to come back to visit. That he will inherit one day.
So I challenged myself today that instead of doing the 30 day skinny challenge, the get organized challenge, the make time for me challenge....that I would challenge myself to the greatest one of all. The smile challenge.
It once was said......
I believe that. Guess What? Our kids do too:)
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